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383 fled before you: but kiss me before you go-embrace me, Jane.’ ‘There, sir-and there!’ I pressed my lips to his once brilliant and now rayless eyes-I swept his hair from his brow, and kissed that too. He suddenly seemed to arouse himself: the conviction of the reality of all this seized him. ‘It is you-is it, Jane? You are come back to me then?’ ‘I am.’ ‘And you do not lie dead in some ditch under some stream? And you are not a pining outcast amongst strangers?’ ‘No, sir! I am an independent woman now.’ ‘Independent! What do you mean, Jane?’ ‘My uncle in Madeira is dead, and he left me five thousand pounds.’ ‘Ah! this is practical-this is real!’ he cried: ‘I should never dream that. Besides, there is that peculiar voice of hers, so animating and piquant, as well as soft: it cheers my withered heart; it puts life into it.- What, Janet! Are you an independent woman? A rich woman?’ ‘Quite rich, sir. If you won’t let me live with you, I can build a house of my own close up to your door, and you may come and sit in my parlour when you want company of an evening.’ ‘But as you are rich, Jane, you have now, no doubt, friends who will look after you, and not suffer you to devote yourself to a blind lameter like me?’ ‘I told you I am independent, sir, as well as rich: I am my own mistress.’ ‘And you will stay with me?’ ‘Certainly-unless you object. I will be your neighbour, your nurse, your housekeeper. I find you lonely: I will be your companion-to read to you, to walk with you, to sit with you, to wait on you, to be eyes and hands to you. Cease to look so melancholy, my dear master; you shall not be left desolate, so long as I live.’ He replied not: he seemed serious-abstracted; he sighed; he half- opened his lips as if to speak: he closed them again. I felt a little embarrassed. Perhaps I had too rashly overleaped conventionalities; and he, like St. John, saw impropriety in my inconsiderateness. I had indeed made my proposal from the idea that he wished and would ask me to be his wife: an expectation, not the less certain because unexpressed, had buoyed me up, that he would claim me at once as his own. But no hint to that effect escaping him and his countenance becoming more overcast, I suddenly remembered that I might have been all wrong, and was perhaps playing the fool unwittingly; and I began gently to withdraw myself from his arms-but he eagerly snatched me closer. ‘No-no-Jane; you must not go. No-I have touched you, heard you, felt the comfort of your presence-the sweetness of your consolation: I cannot give up these joys. I have little left in myself-I must have you. The world may laughmay call me absurd, selfish- but it does not signify. My very soul demands you: it will be |
